Love Him Much

I'm not ready to go to school... I can't meet him... He's going to be my classmate once again... Although I'm happy about it, but my heart hurts... I wish he could read my blog... I want him to know my true feelings toward him... I want him... My heart hurts, bleeding hard now... He doesn't care about me... I'm smiling on the outside but suffering and crying in the inside... I'm sad... I just want him to love me back... But no... That confession of mine makes my friendship and him break... He hates me now... He doesn't like ma and maybe he thinks I just want to play with his feelings... Ahhhhhhhhh.... I need someone to talk with... I always talk and let out my feelings to Ardila but Ardila is not near me... Ardila always listens to my feelings well... I just miss him... I want to hug him, give him morning kiss in the class, sits besides him, supports him when he is playing or do something no matter he win or he lose...


I love him so much... I cry everynight, hoping he is was mine and not others... Letting him go was my decision but I still can't do it... He is my all, my everything... I love him... Why do I have to meet him? I have to wait for two years more to move on... Healing my broken heart at KL... Hoping, I meet someone just like him and hoping that someone could be mine...

I'm still sad... I'm hoping he could read this... I love him so much, more than a friend but he doesn't even thought me as his friend after my pure confession to him... I need someone to heal my broken heart, lead me to a way, full of love, careness and happiness...